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a new year, now with less regret...

the year 2008 was, for me, a rather intense year; looking back neither 2006 nor 2007 were as intense... but maybe that's just time, dulling the TRUE impact of those years.

i was poor for a good portion of the year, but my relative poverty was a result of my moving to Tokyo and, well, living a good life.  i am sure that my family (read: mother) would say that I'd spent too much money on the frivolous, but I think I can safely say that my biggest expense, after rent and taxes, was... vegetables.  Now, in a year when many people have lost their jobs, i guess my winge-ing on about veggies might irk some, but i mention it just to say that i'm not totally crazy.  my next biggest expense after vegetables, you ask? alcohol.  Okay, slightly insane.

this year was also a year relatively devoid of art; i may have danced a lot, talked about interesting things a lot... but I created little other than new relationships.  in Tokyo, my new home, i've made many new friends... the great irony being that there are too many good people.  the same is true of dating, but no one seems to talk about the fact that there are BILLIONS of really decent people out there!  I guess this explains some of the marriages i've been reading about in my trolling around online, peering over old friends' shoulders and into their webby personal lives.  who knew that 2008 would be the year of settling! ... i mean settling DOWN! oops.  oh, but joking snide-ness aside, how does one know that this decent man or that decent woman... is good enough? 

well, guess it's time to...
que the resolutions:
this year i will date less, but more proactively
this year i will spend less on booze, but not necessarily drink less
this year i will ATTEMPT to discover a purpose
this year i will work on finding a job RELATED to said purpose
this year i will write, again.

i feel like there's so much to tell you, but i am... as is immediately apparent upon reviewing this entry... disorganized and a little sleepy.  i'll try and write something inspired.. EVENTUALLY.

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Pura said…
miss you. I feel a lot of the same about the past year, we're so far apart but experiencing the same things. Veggies are expensive here too!!
12:28 PM
Anonymous said…
You feel your partner is good enough when you feel you are good enough.
3:33 PM
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