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i teach, i learn

i teach.
it's what i do for money.
i teach a right wing spiritualist cram school owner, three gay men, five young women and a host of high school students.

each of them has taught me something about the Japanese people: the right wing spiritualist nut believes that the emperor is descended from god and that the Japanese people are "different" from the people everywhere else, the three lonely, closeted gay men studying english as a form of escape or in ORDER to escape... someday... maybe, the five young women enjoying their jobs but finding them difficult and also finding it difficult to advance WHILE trying really hard to be pretty, and my high school students who know that all that matters now is the tests they'll take when the graduate--the tests that will determine their university which will determine their job which will determine the rest of their life.

what else will i learn...



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