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a short summary, a wish, and a comment on sanity or something

In Japan it will be christmas in 3 hours. I wanted to wish you all a merry one in this very impersonal way because, though I do honestly care about 90% of you, I don't have enough time to write something to each and every one of you.

I will spend my christmas with the few friends I have who are not: working (it's not a holiday here in Japan), back in their home country, hanging with visiting relatives... That leaves...2? 3?

It's been a good last few months though--nothing makes you open up the refrigerator door to your life and clear out that rotting bit of tofu you forgot...nothing like being poor in a foreign country..

So, I've read a lot...I've written a lot...and I've had a lot of quiet inbetween the unbearbly joyfully loud moments.. I am happy to say that so many of the things that used to KILL me (e.g. people not returning calls, people backing out of plans, etc..) don't bother me anymore. I have managed to enjoy every single night here in Japan--no matter what I've done. I have gone to a club with a friend who was, perhaps, not in the best of spirits..but I had a great night. I've been stuck in Tokyo sick as a dog...at 2 in the morning..and no where to go for the next 4 hours...and I've been happy.

It isn't nirvana, but perhaps this is peace. I'm still working on forgiving people from my past..and working on remembering people...I want to be a good friend...be a good person regardless of the circumstances.

I guess this has turned into somewhat of a new year's resolution...and I guess this is a good one; may i become a better person. May I hold less against people, may I reach out to more people...

I hope that you have found yourself not just in a FUN position in your life, but in a good position. I don't wish you distraction, but a destination.

With love and a kiss blown from the east,
Happy Holidays
Matthew

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